Life often throws rubbish at us. It makes compost, and it's up to us to decide what to grow in that compost.
Carl Rogers believed people generally want to be the best they can be, and my experience so far would agree.
If you're not quite sure which direction you are going in, or are being swept away by the current, you could find that talking about this in counselling could help put things back into perspective, enabling you to be the person you want to be.